Healing Beyond the Prescription: My Journey to True Transformation

For over 20 years, I did everything I was told would help me heal.

I sat in offices with fluorescent lights, filling out intake forms that asked the same repetitive questions: "How are you sleeping?" "Any thoughts of self-harm?" "On a scale of 1-10, how is your mood today? " I cycled through medications—upping dosages, switching brands, adding something new to "balance things out." I nodded through therapy sessions, rehashing the same stories, feeling a temporary sense of relief, only to walk out and realize nothing had actually changed.

And for years, I accepted this as healing.

I thought healing meant survival. I thought healing meant learning how to manage my symptoms. I thought it meant numbing what was too painful to face, regulating just enough to make it through the day, and waiting for the next prescription refill to keep me steady.

But deep down, I knew something wasn’t right.

I was existing—not living.

I had followed all the "right" steps, yet I still felt empty. Disconnected. Stuck.

And one day, something inside me whispered:

"There has to be more than this."

The Realization: Trauma Was the Root, Not the Symptom

It wasn’t an overnight realization. It wasn’t a dramatic "aha!" moment where I suddenly saw the truth.

It was a slow unraveling.

At first, it came as frustration—Why, after all these years of following the treatment plans, did I still feel like something was missing? Then, it came as exhaustion—How long was I supposed to keep up this cycle of numbing, coping, and managing? And finally, it came as clarity—Healing isn’t about silencing the symptoms. Healing is about getting to the root.

For the first time, I saw my struggles for what they really were: not just anxiety, not just depression, not just a "chemical imbalance"—but deeply unprocessed trauma.

I had spent decades tending to the branches while the roots rotted underneath.

No one had ever asked me about the trauma. No one had ever talked to me about how my body was holding on to experiences my mind had long buried. No one had ever told me that healing wasn’t just about medication and coping mechanisms—it was about facing, feeling, and releasing.

And the scariest part?

I had no idea how to do that.

Stepping Into Holistic Healing

I didn’t go searching for holistic healing. In fact, I didn’t even realize I needed healing.

At that time, I wasn’t thinking about trauma or nervous system regulation or emotional processing—I was just tired of being in pain. My shoulder and hip hurt constantly, and nothing seemed to help. I had been through the usual cycle: doctors, stretches, treatments, but nothing lasted.

So, when I walked into my first yoga class, I wasn’t looking for anything spiritual or life-changing—I just wanted relief.

And that’s exactly what I found.

I left that first class feeling better—physically, yes, but also in a way I couldn’t quite explain. My body felt looser, my breath felt deeper, my mind felt… clearer. It was subtle, but noticeable. Something inside me shifted.

At the time, I chalked it up to just a good stretch, maybe a nice endorphin release. But over time, I started to see patterns.

The more I showed up for my practice, the more I noticed things changing—not just in my body, but in my entire state of being.

• I started feeling calmer in situations that would normally trigger anxiety.

• My sleep improved.

• My emotions felt less overwhelming—like I could actually sit with them instead of drowning in them.

And the most unexpected thing?

Memories started surfacing. Feelings I had buried deep inside me—ones I didn’t even realize I was avoiding—began bubbling up.

At first, it scared me. Why was this happening? Yoga was just movement, right?

But the more I learned, the more I understood:

My body had been holding onto my trauma all along.

All the years of anxiety, depression, and numbness weren’t just "mental health struggles"—they were the symptoms of unprocessed pain my body never had the chance to release.

And for the first time, I was listening.

This realization was like opening a door I had spent my entire life keeping locked. Suddenly, I was seeing my struggles in a whole new light. It wasn’t about "fixing my mind"—it was about healing my body, my nervous system, my whole being.

And that’s when my journey into deeper healing truly began.

I started exploring breathwork, somatic practices, plant medicines, and trauma-informed techniques—not because I was trying to be "spiritual," but because I was finally ready to feel whole.

I didn’t just want to "manage" my trauma anymore.

I wanted to heal.

And that changed everything.

The Transformation: Seeing Real Results

The last six years of my life have brought more healing than the previous 20 combined.

And when I say healing, I don’t mean some fluffy, abstract "love and light" nonsense. I mean real, tangible, undeniable change.

• I stopped feeling like a prisoner in my own body.

• I learned how to regulate my nervous system without relying on substances or prescriptions.

• I finally, fully, truly processed trauma I had carried for decades—trauma I thought I had “dealt with” but had only ever pushed down.

• I stopped living in a constant state of survival and started feeling safe for the first time in my life.

The biggest realization?

Healing isn’t just about understanding your trauma—it’s about releasing it.

And for me, that came through movement, breath, somatic practices, plant medicine, and deeply supportive trauma-informed spaces.

This work isn’t about "fixing" ourselves—because we were never broken to begin with.

It’s about reclaiming the parts of ourselves that we were taught to ignore, suppress, or fear.

The Call to Share This With Others

I know what it’s like to live in survival mode.

I know what it’s like to feel like you’ve tried everything and still feel stuck.I know what it’s like to wonder if healing is even possible for you.

And I also know what it’s like to find a way through.

That’s why I do this work. That’s why I felt called to learn these trauma-informed healing modalities—not just for myself, but for the people who are still searching.

Because no one should have to navigate healing alone. Because you deserve more than just surviving. Because real healing is possible.

I see you. I honor you. And if you ever feel ready, I’m here.

An Invitation to Explore

If anything in this resonated with you, if you’ve ever felt like healing is just out of reach, please know this:

You are not broken. You are not beyond healing. And you do not have to keep carrying this alone.

Healing isn’t about forcing yourself to be “better.”It’s about creating the space where your body, mind, and spirit finally feel safe enough to let go.

You don’t have to keep surviving.You are worthy of thriving.

And when you’re ready—I hope you give yourself the chance to explore what’s possible.

You’ve read this far for a reason. Trust that.

I’m Ready to Heal